30 January....again...

Happy Birthday to me....
My **th birthday....
a year older and none the wiser....
ahahahahaha....
The cat in the pic is me...>_< style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">the same as me...
still....
no reaction...

Then he said...
why don't we have breakfast in Pasar Besar Seremban...
You want to get some flowers?

My heart went...
could it be that he remembers?

But in Seremban....
we passed by the flower shop...but no flower for me...
wuhuhu...
i even mentioned...
Hey...there's a flower shop there...
still...
no reaction...

Haih...so we went back...
and i was on FB for 2 hours when
suddenly...
he called from downstairs...
and remembered...
came up and wished me
a Happy birthday....

And what triggered such a recollection?
When he was flipping through the
calender and remembered
HIS OWN BIRTHDAY.....

Waaa....
anyway....
Happy Birthday to me....

Hopefully...God will grant me my prayers...

Of 'kecek kelate' and savouring Thailand tom yam...

The jam in Raub

Unplanned trips sometimes are
exciting as we do not know
where it will land us
most of the time...

We just had one as recently as 3 days ago...
Chin and I drove all the way to
Kuala Krai on the 1st day of the
New Lunar Year...
(26 January)

Chin suddenly decided to send his nephew back as his
grandma passed away on that day...
so...after a quick packing...
off we drove to the East Coast...

This is my second trip to Kelantan...
I have an 80% of amnesia
on the first trip...
whereby we took a train to Krai instead
of driving...

We planned to surprise Kak Kam...
my bestest friend from St Co days...we planned to just turn up
in Pasir Mas to give her
a pleasant heart attack...

It was a long drive from the karak high way...
heading east...
We passed by Bentong...then Raub...and then
Kuala Lipis...Gua Musang and finally Kuala Krai...

Entering Gua Musang conquistador...(y?)
the scenery change is very obvious...
The granite hills that harbor hidden caves
can be seen from afar...
thus the name Gua Musang i think...
Those hills are beautiful...
they mark one's entrance into the Gua Musang area..


The granite hills that is signature of Gua Musang


The scenic view along the road..

Gua Musang itself is a small town with
lovely scenery...
most of the country side is covered in lush greenery
and this is occasionally broken
by the granite hills far in between...
Very lovely indeed...

Another lovely view

We arrived in Krai at about 6.30 pm...
luckily there wasn't any jam...
going into any of the towns we passed by...


Krai itself is an old town...
Charming in itself...
very quite and for some maybe a little bit
boring...
but there we had good conversation...
with my sister-in-law and her husband...
and that made up for what Kuala Krai lacks...

The next day we went to Pasir Mas to look up
Kak Kam...
My old friend of long time ago...
in St Co...
It is not difficult to look for places in
Kelantan...
the signboards are clear and precise...
so we found Pasir Mas easily...

Kelantan is a beautiful land...
colourful is the word i use to describe it...
Take for example the name of the places:
Pasir Mas, Pasir Putih, Tanah Merah, Ayer Hijau
(all these are colours by the way)

Breathtaking paddy fields

The scenery from Krai to KB is one that
will not be easily forgotten...
You can see many shades of green ...
the vast rolling paddy fields...
with mountains as the background...
really takes one's breath away...
It is like paintings come alive...

The view of the mountains

Green fields

Couple that with the graceful language...
i may not be able to 'kecek kelate'
or understand most of what is spoken
but yet i find the language fascinating...
What is more fascinating is
the Chinese in Kelantan...
They speak fluent Kelantanese Malay...
They may not be aable to speak standard BM
but the local dialect just
flow out of their tongue gracefully...

Our beloved Kelisa in all our adventure...

Honestly...i only see this happening in 2 states
in Malaysia...
Sarawak and Kelantan...
In Sarawak...the Chinese are
able to speak the various local
dialect fluently depending on
where they stay...
They could pick up Iban, Bidayuh or the
local Malay in that matter...

So...the Chinese in Kelantan has the same trait...
which never fails to fascinate me...
If i see one talking...i would listen intensely...
My brother-in-law cannot speak BM
but my ears always perk up
whenever he speaks Kelantanese...
Kecek Kelate...as he says it...

We had Tomyam Merah in Pasir Mas...
That was the best tomyam i ever tasted...
yummy....
and the manggo chicken too..

Kak Kam brough us to Rantau Panjang...
the border town...
we had a look around at a lot of stuff...
flowers...dirt cheap...arrgghh....
You wouldn't find it that cheap in Nilai...
The pure silk cloth only cost 200 riya
for 4 meters...
(after much bargaining...of course
and must be in Kelantanese)
I bought a purple material that look like songket for my sister...
i know she'll love it...
Kak Kam bought me a green one...
and well..she got herself one too
with the colour "hijau kepala itik"
Ahahahahahhaaa....
Itik Mat salleh je kepala hijau Kak Kam...
Itik Melayu Kampung sume kepala itam...
dan berlumpur-lumpur...
hahahah...
dah sampai ke London tgk warna kepala itik...
and i learn that phrase in Kelantan...

I remember my lecturer used to say...
'The roa' to Kelate is smoo' and lice'
(U have to pronounce it in the dialect itself...)
and Yesh...that is very true....
throughout the way from Krai to Kb...the road is
smooth and lice...
and from Krai to Gua Musang too...
but once we were outside of
Jajahan Gua Musang...
there were bumps all the way...


The signboard...

I decided that i love Kelantan after all...
It may not have big shopping complexes...
but it has Rantau Panjang...
which offers many quaint little things...
It was abrief visit but one
that warrant a come back soon...

Bengang se bengang bengang nye...

I have never felt soooooooo

frustrated before ...
arrrrgggghhh......

Bengang betul...
Have u ever felt like wringing the neck of sumone...
Yeap...i have...as recently as today...
this evening...to be exact...
Yesterday i told Mr Chin that he needs to buy some decoration to put
up...
to have the festive air...
he said no need...
I said Fine....if he doesnt care enough then
i will just pretend that we do not celebrate
chinese new year...
For heaven sake...
has he forgotten that he has some colleagues
and friend who might visit him?

I reminded him of the fact, so
today he went off to buy 2 lanterns...
then i said buy some biscuits in Tesco...
he said no need...we have bought a lot
of tidbits made from nuts...
so i got angry...
if he doesnt care...
i'll just forget about the whole thing...
that's it...
Man...i'm not going to think about this anymore...
Nnt kawan2 die and kawan2
i datang nak makan ape...?
Cake xde, biskut xde, minuman ringan pun
yang dibelinye carlsberg...shandy...
ha...nak mabuk org2 tu datang nnt...
kawan melayu die bule ke minum....
where the heck did he put his brain...
i'm soooooooooo pisssssssed......
ARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHH...........
Nnt ...if my fren come...
aku bagi mabuk skali...
orait....
logic ape...

has he forgotten that he no longer stay in Mantin?
That he has a HOUSE?
And that means ppl may come and visit?
Haih...
the moe i think about it...
the more frustrated i get...
Geeeeeerrrrrrraaaaammmmmm........

I should do qigong right now to calm me down...
*Close my eyes...
put my hand on my heart.....
Take a deep breath and smile...yes...
inner smile...
yes...
let it consume my whole body...
and feel the frustration ease away with the smile....
Release.....breathe out all the worries and frustration....*

I actually feel better...
Thank Q Qigong...

Chin said this is me...
when i'm angry...
i look like this...
To quote him...
"This is you now...i know..."

Muahahahahahahaaaa....
Cute eh...?

On no joy...no fren...

Chin keeps wondering why i wake up
exactly at 9 am every morning...
because he knows that if weekends...
i would usually wake up late...
along with him of course..

But truth be told....
it's no fun sleeping alone...
waking up alone with no one beside u
is a freaky situation...

I have this phobia of waking up
alone not knowing
what everybody is doing...

I remember during uni days...
whenever i woke up late...
i was consumed with this intense loneliness...
like i did not know where was everybody..
and that they had left me alone in the house...
So to avoid that situation...
i usually wake up earlier than everybody else..

Hmmm....
this must be connected to a certain
unreasonable fear that i know not what yet...
Curious...and curiouser...

Being a housewife...

Phew.....today...i have swept, mopped, washed and
and at the same time make
a light snack for Chinese New Year...
Who says being a housewife is an easy task..
It's lonely if you are alone at home...
and you don't feel like cooking for yourself..
and yeap...
it is very tiring...
I have backache from washing
the cushion covers and headache
from doing all the house chores..

Really....i admire those women who
are able to work outside and then come back and
cook, wash and sweeps
and basically take care of the
family if they have one...

But, again, i'm enjoying every moment of it while it
last because, well,...
i don't think i'll ever have this chance of
staying at home on working days
ever again...

The house is awfully dusty for one thing...
It's the wind...and also the construction area
near my house...
Arrgghh...
It's killing me...
to walk on dusty floor but
yet i have just swept and mopped it...
Darn....
I wish that the developer can get
the houses done quickly so that
we don't have to suffer the dust anymore...
they weather is pretty hot nowadays...
perfect for me to do washing...
so i wash everything that need to be washed...

I am very slow in making the snacks tho...
a half day and only half a biscuit tin...
arrrgghh...i don't have a proper wok to
fry it and then...well....
it's slow work..cutting the seaweed and the popiah skin...
i hope by tomorrow...
i can fill up 2 tins so i can start on other project...

Hah...now i noe how it feels to be a housewife...
Chin said he wished that he is earning
a 5 - 6 figure salary a month so
i can be a stay home wife...
do things that i like...
like going for beauty treatments, swimming, taking up
dancing class and such stuff...
fickle i know...
but well...can't a girl have some fun imagining all
these stuff...

Anyway...i told him it's written in
our destinies that we both
have to work our ass off to earn a decent
living...
and well...i can't possibly quit now
since he had convinced me to take up
the pension scheme...
Now i really have to work until
i'm 56...
Argggh.....

Oh well...wishful thinking...

Killing 2 birds with one stone...as Chin puts it...

LAst Sunday, Chin and I went to
the newly open Tesco Semenyih...
saje ank menyibuk...
anyway...the Tesco is bigger than
Tesco Seremban...
and has more things to look at...
more like Giant Nilai...

We had lunch in Kyros Kebab...
(dah lame x makan kebab..)
so, we ordered kebab with croissant...
Chin asked for extra vegies...
since we know how the pics can deceive ppl
into thinking that they will get sumting like the pics
in the menu shows...

Anyway...when the kebab arrived...
it did not contain any vegies...
we just had a bite when Chin went to ask
for vegies...
they were flustered for a
while...but then...
the waitress came and said that
they would prepare another kebab...
we said it was ok...just give us some vegies..
but they insisted to give us a new one
and we got to retain the 1st one...
ended up we ate 2 kebabs instead of 1...
The second kebab had extra vegies which
was pretty delicious...
The service at the kebab outlet is extra ordinary tho...
as in...how many times would you get a
replacement if you are not happy with
your food...
No...really....i mean...how many times...
chances are...nil...
butt it's good to know that
there are places like this Kyros kebab
in Semenyih that has good service...

Emotional roller-coaster...

Lst night...i went to look up some
old photos to be scanned
and uploaded onto my FB page...
some photos during uni time.....
some of those photos are really classic...
considering that there was no digital camera then..
(thank God for technology again...
some geniuses created digital cameras..)

As i was searching and looking thru
old albums...
and laughing at some old photos...
suddenly...
i found and album containing
my family photos...
back in 2005...
It was the first time that there were 6 of us siblings
with our parents..
and then all the family members...
children and grandchildren...
I took a good look at my parents...
and i realised how young my mom looked then...
how fair ...
my pa too...
i also found pictures of my nieces
and nephews when they were young
and adorable..

Suddenly...a sharp feeling of sadness
grip my heart....
and for no reason at all i started to cry...
tears flowed unchecked...
and i couldn't seem to stop no matter
how much i wanted to...

You see...
it suddenly hit me that time really rolls on by
pretty quickly...
and that things around us are changing...
whether we are ready for it or not...
my parents are growing older and i do not spend
enough time with them...
no matter how much school holidays i have...
i am only an occasional appearance in their
life...
one that is only heard most of the time
thru the phone and not
in person...

silly of me, i know...
but stil i couldn't stop the tears...
of course people are growing older as time passes...
but...well...
i guess...i just want time to stand still...

Chin said his mom too is growing
older but the difference is
he is seeing his mother every weekend...
I wish that i could do that too...
but alas...
we have to go on the path we have chosen...
no matter how difficult it is sometimes...

Oh well...i guess...
i am just going thru an emotional patch in my life
at the moment and
little things make
me sad...

Staying with mother-in-law...

My ma-in-law stayed here for a week
to cook for us after my operation...
It's kinda nice to have someone to cook
for u everyday...
and chin absolutely loves it...

But there are sacrifices to be made
of course...
1st is the TV.....
she conquered the TV the whole week...
then of course other small stuff...
that she likes doing it her way...

She threw away a whole container
of pickled buah pala
since she tot it was from
the last time we were in penang...
apparently Mr Yee just
gave us recently...
(hahaha...Chin was quite mad...)

She also does the washing everyday wic
i don't do of course...
save water and electricity ma...
but old ppl don't understand this...

The funniest thing was when
Chin helped her out while
she was cooking..
she would suggest to put this and that
outside and have a long pipe to
wash the wok etc...
Chin got irritated...
apparently to him...
Lomaji is "sinka"
(sinka in cantonese means sendiri memandai je)

I always tot Chin is sinka sometimes...
and so exasperating when he wants
everything to be put near at hand...
tapi x sedap di pandang mata...
so when his mother was here...
baru la Chin rasa how i feel...
when he did that to me...
Kakakakakaka....

For me...i'm ok...
i just put evrything back when my ma-in-law
not looking...
or i juts clean everything...
or buat senyap2 so not to offend her...
Orang tua kan...

We can tolerate old ppl if we choose
to anyway...
lagipun...they are old after all...
we might not get another chance to treat them
nicely if we don't do it now...

To all Daddy's out there....listen....

How many actually listen and understand
song lyrics...?
i got one for all the Daddy's out
there...
if you have daughters...or just daughter...
you should appreciate each moment you
have with them...
I have a good song for you here
to think about...
While writing this entry, i discovered that
Steven Curtis Chapman has lost
her youngest daughter,
Maria Sue Chapman,
in a tragic accident....

Cinderella
Steven Curtis Chapman





She spins and she sways to whatever song plays,
Without a care in the world.
And I'm sitting here wearing the weight of the world on my shoulders.
It's been a long day and there's still work to do,
She's pulling at me saying "Dad I need you!
There's a ball at the castle and I've been invited and I need to practice my dancin'"
"Oh please, daddy, please!"


So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone.


She says he's a nice guy and I'd be impressed
She wants to know if I approve of the dress
She says, "Dad the prom is just one week away
And I need to practice my dancin'
"Oh please, daddy , please!"


So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone


But she came home today with a ring on her hand
Just glowin' and tellin' us all they had planned
She says, "Dad the wedding's still six months away but I need to practice my dancin'
"Oh please, daddy , please!"


So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

New year new set of young homosapiens....

Come 2009.....
i got new sets of young homosapien...
but still...
the the amount of chemical that i am
exposed to are still the same...
or rather increase i guess...
You prolly think...
hey...she's an English teacher...
what chemical could she
possibly exposed to?
Is it life threatening...?
Yeah.....as if she uses the lab to teach...

Oh...i'm telling you...
this is a potent chemical i'm talking
about....
one that can make people do crazy stuff if
they have an overdose of it....
the non other male and female hormones...
It could endanger your life...
i tell you....
makes you giddy....

So...i usually am given 4 upper form classes...
usually...when u say upper form...
everyone cowers from it...
especially English teachers...
if you get good students in good
schools...
they might correct you instead of the other
way round...
the only way to deal with it is...
more reading and
accept that we are all still learning...
and being corrected is nothing to be ashamed of...
it's just a process of learning...
(Thank God for St Co...)

But this year....there's a new
English teacher in school...
he stays in the same area as i am...
so we actually have an excess of English teachers...
since the school wants him to be eligible
for the BISP...i have to sacrify one of my classes...

So...i gave up 4MPV
(Mr Chin said i teach a class of multi-purpose vehicles)
i guess my KB prefers me to teach the better
intermediate classes...
to think that i actually came up with
some strategy to teach them...
and there are only 16 of them...
Hmm....
anyway...so now...
i only have 3 classes...which makes
up to 15 periods of solid English classes...
(is there non solid... i wonder...)
and EST class and 2 PJK...
i don't mind the PJK...
the children just love playing
outside...

My 5 Science seems happy to get me as their Form
teacher....
my Form 4 Snail (4SN) last yr
because they are extremely slow in everything...
so i hope this yr they will not be snails anymore...
My exasperating 5SI2...i still teach them...
one that constantly gives me high blood
pressure...
and 4SI1...they seem a nice lot...
(The SI1 classes are always
on the good side of the teachers)

With these variation...
i hope i will survive another yr of teaching profession...
they are not bad actually...
the combination...
just that there are a handful of trouble maker....
and i mean in all subjects...

And i do hope that the school will not have tsunamis
all the time...
so...people....i can finally concentrate on what matters...
educating the young....

An update on Christmas...

I can't belief that i miss updating
on Christmas this year...
Tho it's not a grand occasion
but i hold it dear in my heart...

I decided to give gifts that my nieces and nephews wanted
this Xmas and not something
that i force them to want...
so well....i asked around..
fishing for info...

Yaya kept asking me if there is any gift
but i said nope
because i didn't have the time to shop..

I discovered that Akim loves guitar...
Yaya loves a shirt-dress in H&L
and Baby loves toys...
Florence wants a green school bag
and Moses loves badminton...

So, on 24th of Dec, my sis and i went
out to shop...and we hid everything
in the boot of her car...
thankfully the kids went to my sis's new house
when we got back...
so i got the chance to hide them..

We went to church at 8 pm as usual...
the church was very stuffy this
due to the rain and also there were many ppl standing
at the entrance instead of going in...

After church, we went back watch Tv while having tea
(classic....)
then the children went to bed...
My sis and i stayed up chatting while i
wrapped the gifts and
put them nicely under the tree...
until the next day....

The next day...????
i have some interesting short video to watch....

The New Boss.....is finally here...

This is dejavu...
don't you think so...
i remember writing this exact same
piece last year...
at about the same time...
under more or less the same title...

Well....the much await new Boss finally arrived...
and the thing is i was not in school...
i miss the much awaited moment...
to capture the reactions of the various ppl in school...

i still remember last year...
i arrived early in school and Kaka Ngah came in
with the juicy bit of news..
doubts and many more reactions...
how each person try to grasp the whole thing when they discovered
who it was...
and some tried to verified if the rumours were true...

And to think that i missed this new one...
haih...

He came yesterday...
January 12, 2009...
and their first meeting was yesterday afternoon...
after school in the Computer Lab.
I accidentally got to know about it
when i called Umi at 3 sumting.

So...this is what i know so far...
everyone couldn't wait for him to appear...
it's like everyone is holding their breath
and restraining themselves from jumping up and down in their seats...
like...they cannot contain their happiness...
but desperately so..
they have to hold it in...
play it low...
a secretive smile here and there...
for some...
a euphoric air of happiness...
with dare,
a toss of the head in the wind and say...
yesh...she will be gone...
and a new better one will come...

Anyway....in hind sight....
i did get some reaction from from ppl...
through the SMS
(thank God for modern technology)
so...these are some reactions that i got:

The name is Tn Haji NHO
so we have to call him by the name Tn Hj...

ZB: He's ok. Nampak lebih considerate. Baik orgnye tp
jgn buat boss marah dah la...
MRH: Yes......Best giler....
SIN: Pgetua baru ok. w/pn nampak serius
tp bule bincang. 1st meeting
smooth sailing.
SL: Takut juge la...
(She's afraid of everything....BTW)
UNMY: Pgetua ok, berbeza sgt ngan Kam, tp
tak tau la kan.
RG: Looks cool. We are at the cross country
meeting & hari Q. He's asking for input & not
INSTRUCTING. Nice impression.
Hope it lasts.

Well...what do you think?I haven't seen him for
real...so i can't give my own input...
suffice to say...
i tak sabo nak tengok dan lihat...

Oh...the JUICIEST part was...
he was in the school and Kak Kam wasn't there...
so he called her asking where she was...
she said on the way
(the Malaysian term for - i just started my journey)
So he said he had arrived in school
and why the **** is she still not in school...
she got cold feet maybe..
trus blah ke Dato' Mansor...
and dengar citer...
causing havoc kat sane
sbb x habaq nak datang awal2...
kelam kabut la....

Life is SO....SO...SO....exciting.....
Don't you just agree with me...?

Show cause letters flying around...

On the day i was in the hospital
a few ppl in the school got
a juicy bit of love letter from the BOSS...

Some may deserve it but one
definitely does not deserve it....
and it has stirred the eagle's nest...

2 of those who received the letter
did not turn up at the 1st
staff meeting for no reason at all....
while the one who does not deserve it...
he had a valid reason on that day for not coming...
and the irony is....
he got the green light from the person who
gave him the love letter...

(If you are reading this, i feel for you my friend...
take whatever necessary action to
get her to retrieve it from
ur file)

It just goes to show how fickle
some one is...
considering that she was the one who endorsed the
letter and written beneath it
En. ____ sila ambil tindakan....

This only goes to show 2 things:
1. she is fickle
2. she signs documents without reading it..

Anyway....one of those who received the letter
apparently did not think that
the meeting was important enough
to be attended...
but the thing is
she thought the PMR result is more important though
mind you, she did not teach Form 3 last yr...
Some ppl are beyond our logical reasoning...

Anywho...back to the one who issued the letter,
she still talks as if she would be there for
a long time....
Cepat2 la blah...
All the best in the new school...

Back to the real world..

The nervously awaited day was over and i am

kinda glad....
but the pain is stil there...
a bit...

I woke up early on Friday morning...
took bath and then at 7. 15 we drove to KPJ...
We arrived exactly at 7.30...
and on the way to the entrance
we met Dr Ishak...
He was early...

Anyway...he said he would meet us later after i was admitted...
So we went to admission counter to get admitted...
then...i was led to a 4 bedded ward...
It was ready for me....
the nurse gave me a change of clothes
and a cap for the hair...
asked some routine questions
and asked me to get change...

In hospital clothe

So there we were at 8.15 am...waiting for the doc..
he came at about 8.30....
i was giddy with nervousness...
laughed a lot...
made some lame jokes...to calm the nerve...
Chin took some pics of me
with his handphone...


Then...Dr Ishak said OT(operation theatre)
would call for me when they were ready...
Mind you, i simply love the theatre...
but not this kind of theatre...:(

In the cap...
Then, another attractive doc arrive...
look at the bed number and
my name...
and introduced himself as
Dr Amran, the anesthesiologist,
and he explained that he would be the
one that would knock me out...
He explained some procedures....
but i said i would be blissfully unconscious
by then to know anything...

Chin, being the Chemistry teacher that he is,
asked the good doc about what subjects
one should excel in if one
aspires to be a doctor...

Dr Amran, so sweet of him, obliged Chin
by explaining in his sometime stuttering
way....about the academic side of the deal...
Sweet....

Anyway...when OT finally came calling,
i was a nervous wreck...
i was pushed into OT with a trolley...
said goodbye to Chin....
or rather see you later...
then, changed trolley in the waiting alley of the OT...
and finally wheeled into OT...

It was really cold inside...
or maybe i was nervous...
my heart rate was increasing...
and i was shivering..from
the cold and nerve...

Dr Amran....stuck a needle into my vein
for the IV drip...
(man...that was PAINFUL)
i hate IV drips...
my first encounter was when i was 16
and 17 years later
i stil hate it....
"Takde lagi jarum yang tak sakit..."
that was his statement to my curse....

I was finally wheeled to the operation theatre...
a cold trolley bed...climbed into it...
and looked into the 3 lights....
like in Dr House...
or ER...
I was hooked onto the heart monitoring machine...
and the nurse smiled at my heart rate...
Dr Ishak appeared and grinned
at my heart rate...
He said....Nervous? First time? Nothing to worry...
The heart rate is a bit fast...
Man...i was trying to control my
shivering body..

The next thing i knew...
there was a slight pain on my hand...
where the doc pricked the tube for the drip...
apparently, Dr Amran was discreetly giving me the
anaesthetic....
i winced at the cold that ran up my vein...
"Sakit ke?" he asked....
need i answer that?
Die urut-urut sikit....haih...
then i felt my head became like two...
then i was just saying....can i sing...
and the next moment i was gone...

I was having a nice dream...
when i heard the nurses woke me up...
asking me to breathe...
i tried 3 times...
before i finally was able to breathe...
they took off the oxygen tube....
the air never tasted so sweet before...

I heard Dr Amran said hi...and welcome
back to the real world...
i was still trying to think what was happening...
there was like a heavy weight on my
abdominal area...

At 12, i was finally wheeled into the ward...
and i saw the worried Chin waiting for me...
waved a weak hi at him...
The whole thingy took 2 1/2 hrs...
the procedure itself was only 45 mins...

If i have to go through the whole procedure again...
i would still have the same nervous
reaction...
One can never be too comfortable
or get used to being under the knife....
for a million years...

Thankfully...
they waited for me to be unconscious before
they took off everything...

Nervous...suddenly...

While i was writing my lesson plan today...
suddenly i felt nervous...
felt like i couldn't breathe suddenly...
and had to take a few deep breath
to calm my mind...

I couldn't wait for tomorrow to be over...
and done with....
Arrrgggh.....
tension....

I wil have the minor operation tomorrow in KPJ...
under Dr Ishak Abdul Samad...
He is a reassuring person...
and he kept saying don't be nervous...
it's minor...
he will stick a camera in my fallopian tube
to see if it's block....
hmmm.....

I felt like puking....pun ade...
sesak nafas pun ade...
tak dapat concentrate nak buat kerja...
haih...
macam2...

Cepat2 la over.....

Busy Body who always wants to interfere...

Today the staffroom was abuzz again...
with some dissatisfaction...

Jem and Sarry asked teachers to stay back
on Friday afternoon to rearrange the position of the furniture
in the staffroom...

we discovered that it was someone who was dissatisfied with
the current position who went to
report to the head so she will
instruct the ajk to change it..

This busy body....
is famous for giving out instruction through someone else...
she never dares to confront and tell honestly her point...
she would rather go complain to the higher authority
and then...
wait for that person
to take action...
Ni main-main blakang ni yang tak syok ni...

I ape lagi...
i announced to the whole bilik guru
and when everyone heard her request
became very angry...

First of all....
before she came to the school..
the staffroom was exactly arranged as she had suggested...
an we could not even move without actually
squeezing our
butts
here and there...
There was no big space at the side
for us to actually walk and be free to stop and chat...
when there were 2 people standing between 2 tables
there would be a traffic jam...

And of course...
she doesn't know this...
the fat head...

For heaven sake...
she doesn't even sit in the staffroom..
she has her own small room
for God's sake...
with fan to herself...
why would she step on our tails?
Tu lah...
kalu takde kerja...
jangan menyusahkan orang lain...
duduk diam2 dah...
ni nak menyibuk...

Lin said....
sape...ha...sape....kakak aku?
Mane satu?
(Cewah....macam byk sgt kakak die tu kat SM**)
Ye la...bak kata Umi...
semua yang tak elok tu related to her....hahahaha...

When she discovered who that busy body was...
she said...sepak kang baru tau...ha....

Umi as usual...always terlepas masa
critical bila org kecoh2...
when she entered the staffroom...
all the chaotic moments were gone...
kena bagi update...

Kak Yah suggested...
ape kata skola buat satu bilik satu bilik....
macam die tu...
takde la complain....
Good idea....
bernas betul...

The chaotic moment was ended when after Kak Ngah
expressed her opinions...and firmly put her foot down....
Dah pukul 5...sume balik....
jangan duduk lame2 kat skola....
dan jangan lupe....balik nanti...
singgah kat pasar rabu...beli barang makan....

Gemuruh tepuk tangan sokong Kak Ngah...
Cewah....
Hebat...orang lame kan...
die pun tak suke si busy body yang tak duduk
dalam bilik guru tu...

Moral of the story:
If you do not dare to face the consequence of
your own suggestion or changes that you want to bring
(especially the UNREASONABLE type)
please SHUT THE HELL UP....
Berani cakap depan2 baru org respect...
kalu skadar nak pukul blakang2...
tu pengecut namanye...
berani kerana betulll
sebab tak brani la die tu buat camtu...

Hot story...
Kita komplot not to stay back after skool on Friday...
Habis cerita...

Ni cerita hangat...macam goreng pisang
kat kedai junction police traffic...

Coffeshop talk...

Today had been a hectic day too...
at least the school was more organised than yesterday...

I had PJK class with Form 3 today...
so i briefed my students on
the rules and regulations...
about the proper attire and punishment
for those who do not wear
the proper attire...
I also warned that students will be scolded by the HM
if they do not wear the appropriate attire
for PJK...

i just finished lecturing them
and there she was...
coming towards us..
and I knew it...
i simply knew it...
She had to meddle somehow...
so she asked the students to do squatting (ketuk ketampi)
for 20 times...
lantak nko la...
but she just wanna have fun i guess...
Girls...ooops.....woman just wanna have fun...
kakakakkaa...

Anyway...
i had panel meeting up to 5 pm...
after that...
Lin, bed, Me, Chin, Ravi,Kak Ti, Ruslan and
anak2 went for tea at the
junction cafe....or the
polis traffic cafe...
coffeeshop gossip...

Hush now....tis the juicy ones...
The head went to Seremban to get her
appointment letter...
It seems that the new head cannot wait to come...
because his seat is getting hotter up there...
the office had given him a farewell party
and they were like thinking...
bilo ko nak blah ni????

So....this comfy head is pushed to get her appointment
letter instead of sitting here comfortably
waiting for the letter to come...

The 2nd juicy part was....
about a teacher that many ppl menyampah
sesangat...
si lembik....byk mulut...kuat kipas....
non other than FSCM...
She is pregnant undeniably...
but she has been really unenergetic
since she was 1 month pregnant...
tak larat la i....that's her
popular excuse...
i wonder if she got a show cause letter from the head
for not attending the 1st staff meeting...

Rumour has it that the head wanted to see her personally...
(i heard this by the way while
having brunch at the canteen this morning)
The head said..kalu you jumpa
die, suruh die jumpa i...urgent, cakap...
(in her bossy tone...)
Tadi i meronda tengok die tak masuk kelas...
(kena nko....kipas la lagi....
maybe bule padam api menyampah org tu...)

Lin and Bed menyampah habis...
i dok jauh2 dan memang tak berkenaan langsung with this
kipas angin...
sakit hati la....
anyway...
last year when we were busy completing our
borang serah tugas at the end of the year...
this kipas could announce to the whole
staffroom...
Eh...nape sume org busy sgt ni...aku takde keje pon...
(Ha...nko tu mengelak keje...
org bagi keje...nko komplain...tak abih2....)

3rd juicy news...errmmm...
Lee dapat surat tunjuk sebab
sebab tak hadir staff meeting...
part ni takde la juicy sesangat sbb Lee tak
menyakitkan hati org sesangat...

Haih.....hot gossip...
coffeshop talk ni sronok la jugek....
kekekekekeee....

Maybe i should change the title of my
blogspot to COFFESHOP TALK....
lagi sedap....

First day of school 2009...

School was totally chaotic today....
this was made worse by the presence of the visiting officers from
PPD and the Edu Dept.

The form 1 has their orientation week this week
and the Form 4 too wil have theirs at the
same time...
but it seems that the Form 4 students were not asked
to go into the hall...
so they were there at the canteen....
so you can imagine how the atmosphere was like
with students everywhere...

Top this up with the last minute giving of timetable...
so teachers were not prepare with the lesson of the day and
we were asked to teach in the 2nd period...
Haih...the wonder of it all...

At 12.40 there was the house meeting...
and again...students can be seen everywhere...
to make matter worse..
the meeting ended at 1.45 pm...
there there was still 40 minutes to go
before school break off...
so students tend to lose concentration after
you gather them in a big group for an hour or so...

Haih....tongkang pecah...again...
another year of SM**
dilanda tsunami....

I had to wait for Chin after school...
he had Co-curriculum meeting...
his meeting ended at 4.45 pm but some teachers
really do not know how to appreciate time...
an inconsiderate...
small insignificant matters
which are totally unrelated to co-curriculum
were brought up in the *any othe matters* session...
and the meeting was dragged up to 5.15 pm...

I was so hungry by then...
and was the last person in my school
compound....
How terrible can it be...
First day...
and last to go back....
haih....

The wonder of technology

Elvis Duet

Let's sing together...

Les Festin




Les Festin
French lyrics:

Les rêves des amoureux sont comm’(e) le bon vin
Ils donn(ent) de la joie ou bien du chagrin
Affaibli par la faim je suis malheureux
Volant en chemin tout ce que je peux
Car rien n’est gratuit dans la vie

L’espoir est un plat bien trop vite consommé
A sauter les repas je suis habitué
Un voleur solitaire est triste à nourrir
A un jeu si amer je n’peux réussir
Car rien n’est gratuit dans…

La vie… Jamais on ne me dira
Que la course aux étoiles; ça n’est pas pour moi
Laissez moi vous émerveiller et prendre mon en vol
Nous allons en fin nous régaler

La fêt(e) va enfin commencer
Sortez les bouteilles; finis les ennuis
Je dresse la table, de ma nouvell(e) vie
Je suis heureux à l’idée de ce nouveau destin
Une vie à me cacher et puis libre enfin
Le festin est sur mon chemin

Une vie à me cacher et puis libre enfin
Le festin est sur mon chemin


English lyrics:

Dreams are to lovers as wine is to friends
Carried through lifetimes, (and) spilled now and then
I am driven by hunger, so saddened to be
Thieving in darkness; I know you’re not pleased
But nothing worth eating is free

My hope is a banquet impatiently downed
Impossibly full, now I’ll probably drown
Many thieves’ lives are lonely with one mouth to feed
If giving means taking, I’ll never succeed
For nothing worth stealing is…

Free at last; won’t be undersold
Surviving isn’t living; won’t eat what I’m told
Let me free, I’ll astonish you; I’m planning to fly
I won’t let this party just pass me by

The banquet is now underway, so…
Bring out the bottles; a new tale has spun
In clearing this table, my new life’s begun
I am nervous, excited; (oh) just read the marquee!
A lifetime of hiding; I’m suddenly free!
My dinner is waiting for me

A lifetime of hiding; I’m suddenly free!
My dinner is waiting for me

A small kingdom in a far away land...of the unknown...Part 2 (sequel...)

Another year has begun....
Another torturous year...
if i may say so....
since the Queen still
occupies the throne....
She presided over the first meeting of the year....
in her "queenly" manner...
she read through the etiquettes of
being an EDUCATOR...
(by citing herself as example - what else is new...duhhh...)

But...underneath all these...
there is a slight tremor of excitement....
a buzzz.....
hush.....
gossip....

There will be a new chief....
a king now...
for this puny kingdom...
in this far...far away land...
he has come to see his future kingdom....
a place that he will preside over...

Rumour has it that he is a kind and gentle
but strict king...
all the more better....
at least hormones won't interfere...
and i guess it takes a man to
get hormones under control...
(i'm referring to the 2 assistant commander-in-chief)

I can sense excitement....
anticipation....
and MOST of all....
IMPATIENCE....

The furtive glances...
the mile long grins...
the conspiratory smiles...
the almost yet-to-be relieved long sighs....
and...yes....
almost...
the hint of...
feet tapping impatiently...

The fourth in command today was
in elated mood...
in a state of euphoria almost...
and she didn't bother to control her volume...
she just boldly...mind you...
in the presence of the queen...
toss her head into the wind...
and exclaimed...
i'm happy because she's going away soon...

Arggh...
i don't know which is worse...
or ugly....
a new commander-in-chief...
or another year of under the command
and manipulation of the
hormone estrogen...

I guess we all the humble commoner
shall face the bull by its horn....
(no pun intended there)
It's a bull year after all...

Another year full of drama...

Doctor's appointment...

I had an appointment with my gynae
yesterday....
to scan my uterus...
to see if the thickening that was spotted there
in November still exist....
and if so...
what's the next step to take...

We waited for almost 2 hours
since the doc was in surgery...
so we sat there and chatted with the receptionist....
to the doc...
(is that what you call them..?)
we discovered that he actually has a column
in majalah Keluarga...
Well...he a very understanding and soft spoken type...
one that makes you feel comfortable and
give you confidence...
i guess that is of utmost importance when
we're seeing a doctor...

Anyway...finally...
when it was my turn...
we went in...
i changed into a sarong...
since he was going to do an internal scanning...

What did we see?
An egg....
The size...?
23 mm...a good size according to him...
the uterus wall is clear...
except on the right side...
there is a slight blur near the upper part...
The good doc said he would take a sample of the
layer and see what it is...
on the 9th of January...
when he carries out the procedure of
looking into my fallopian tube
with a camera...

The procedure...
he will make 3 holes...
one just above the navel to insert the microscopic camera
and one on the left and right side of my abdomen...
near the ovary area...
to maneuver the camera..
well...during the whole time
i will be unconscious...

How do i feel?
How would you feel if you know
that holes will be made in
your abdomen...
well...that's how i feel...
Oh..i pray to God that
the whole fertility business
will not get complicated.....
Arrrgh....