Loving someone to smithereen...and missing them to death...

I fell in love a long...long time ago...
way...way...way..before i met Chin.....
to a little girl....
whom to me....
is the cutest little girl in the whole wide world...
She is of course my niece...

I love all my nieces and nephews...
especially my sisters' kids...
to smithereen...
These six have a special place in my heart...
especially Yaya...
and now that the holiday has ended...
i miss them terribly...
especially Yaya of course...

She misses me too and according to my sister...
she cried the day we left kuching....
while having lunch...
and yesterday when she went back to
Serian...

She has been begging me to go back for the Chinese New Year
break...
but then airplane tickets are expensive now...
and i am sure that chin will not agree....
Oh...my heart is breaking....
and i know that she'll be disappointed....

Anyway...i can't wait for longer school break so
i can go back to see them again...
Oh...how time crawls.....
the torture....
oh...my heart...my heart...